Sunday, September 23, 2012
When the tumor started invading the posterior wall of my stomach and the length and quality of my life seemed imperiled once again, Caleb wisely reminded me that it was not how long I lived but how well I lived that mattered.
During the early years of this journey, I had CT scans every 3 - 6 months and generally received the contrast liquid in small brown vials. I viewed those vials as perfect tiny vases for flowers, so saved them. Now I enjoy choosing flowers to be held lovingly by the these make-shift vases. I take great joy in seeing beauty emerge from what was an ordinary container for a nasty-tasting fluid. Somehow, it is representative to me of how the ugly and painful experiences of this life can be transformed into expressions of beauty and hope.
For more information about any type of neuroendocrine cancer, I highly encourage you to look at the websites for the Carcinoid Cancer Foundation or the Caring for Carcinoid Foundation.
The Pancreatic Cancer Action Network is also a useful resource for individuals with pancreatic neuroendocrine cancer.